My Confessions

Sydney here i come!

2005-10-28T02:02:00.000+10:00

Why hello all ;)

Sorry i haven't updated for a bit, i have been busy organising to go to Sydney for a bit :P Tomorrow (Saturday morning) i have to get up at 5am get myself ready etc, then be at the train station before 6.45am to catch the train to Sydney. I shall be meeting one of my closest best mates (Karla) at Strathfield :D Then we shall be catching another train to Merrylands so i can see her house etc :P Go buy some cigs (Poor girl is dieing without them..) and do the usual shit. There not good for you Karla *lights up a joint* :P

Anyway after that we shall be catching a train up to my boyfriends house :D So yeah, i get to see two great people in one day :P How special do i feel right about now ;) Oh its going to be funny ;) But yeah :P I'm staying at Brendan's house until Monday, and then on Monday I'm back to Karla's house. So then from Monday to either Friday or Sunday i shall be at her house. Man i cant wait :P We have such a good time together, usually being spent my getting drunk or stoned. Oh and not to mention all the clubbing we do and parties we go to. Good, good times. So yeah, I'm really looking forward to it.

I shall be getting my car tomorrow, but in case i cant...mum and dad said it will defiantly be here by the time i get back. Fuck i cant wait to mod my car. Geoffrey and i had a long conversation about modding cars (his really into it) and was giving me a hand answering all my questions etc :P I'm planning to get 4 x 12 inch subs in the boot (i probably will have to get it fibre glassed), 4 x 6 inch speakers for the side doors, about 6 x 9 inch speakers for the parcel shelf, front speakers, a 1000 watt amp for under the seat, maybe a TV/CD/DVD + screen, neon's for under the car and inside the car, I'm going to lower my car and maybe get a bigger exhaust pipe :D Oh and a body kit and an alarm system :P Of course I'm going to flame my car...and yeah :P That's what i have planned anyway :D Woot, then ill enter it in the Summernats :P

Anyway, i shall be off now :D

Fiona xo

Scrap booking, Car & Tafe

2005-10-25T23:23:00.000+10:00

Well first i must apologize for not writing yesterday :P I zoned out when i was about to write the post, and in the end i was pretty fucked and didn't bother :P I didn't do much yesterday anyway...apart from scrap booking for the afternoon, and then watching all the thunderstorms that were around. I went outside trying to take some photos of the lightning, but it was to slow...and my camera didn't have a fast enough shutter speed. But then i just took some video footage of it :P Its good we are getting more rain ^^ We are on a big drought here, so we need every storm we get :P

Anyway, tomorrow i have to go into Tafe for that Information/Enrolment session. I'm starting to get nervous :P I hope i get in....I'm worried about how they test you, probably the fact i don't know what to expect them to ask me is a bit of a worry. Ahh well :P

I'm probably getting the car on Thursday or Friday (hopefully). Mum and dad said its defiantly mine though :| I still cant get over it :P

Anyway, i have to get an early night tonight so i can get to the bus interchange on time :P

Fiona xo

3...

2005-10-23T20:20:00.000+10:00

Three Names You Go By
- Fiona
- Fiz
- Fi

Three Parts of Your Heritage
- Irish
- German
- Aussie

Three Things That Scare You
- Being Alone
- Loosing my boyfriend
- Not being able to live my life to the *max* Hahaha i cant beleive i said max.

Three of Your Everyday Essentials
- Brendan + Friends
- Music
- Home and Away

Three Things You Are Wearing Right Now
- Shirt with a Reaper on it :P
- Undies.
- Bangles, studs, bars (piercings)

Three of Your Favorite Bands or Musical Artists
- Marilyn Manson
- Queen
- Deicide

Three of Your Favorite Songs - at the moment
- 3AM - Matchbox 20
- Bent - Matchbox 20 (ok so ive been listening to Matchbox 20 lately :P)
- Bitter End - Placebo

Three Things You Want in a Relationship (other than Real Love)
- Friendship
- Trust
- Connection

Two Truths and a Lie
- Ive been hit by a car
- Ive never been out of Australia
- I dont go to school

Three Things about the Same/opposite Sex that Appeal to You
- Eyes
- Smell
- Kickass personality :P

Three of Your Favorite Hobbies
- Photography
- Reading
- Travel

Three Things You Want to do Really Badly Right Now
- Kiss and hug Brendan
- Hug Amy + Fiona
- Go have a nice relaxing shower :P

Three Places You Want to go on Vacation
- Ireland
- London
- India

Three Things You Want to Do Before You Die
- Own a photography Studio
- Marry and have kids
- Travel the world

Three people I want to see take this quiz
- me
- myself
- i

Yes yes, thats right another one of these quiz's. Soooooo i might enjoy filling them out :P So shoosh. I went to bed at 9am this morning :P Talking to my Brendan. Then i went to bed and had a really weird dream :P Hahaha, my dreams are mostly always fucked up :D Monday tomorrow, i dont think ill get the car tomorrow...but you never know :D I get it this week! Woooooooohooooo.

I have to go to Tafe this Wednesday for that Information/Enrolment Session. Not as nervous as before lol. Bleh :P Oh and im hopefully going to Sydney this Saturday to see my boyfriend, hopefully staying at his house to Monday...then on Monday i shall be staying with one of my best mates; Karla. Yeah i shall be staying with her till Friday :D So yeah, it should be goooooooooooood :D

Anyway, im out ;)

Fiona xo

Tagged!

2005-10-23T02:43:00.000+10:00

Seven things you plan to do before you die:
1. Travel the World
2. Own my own Photography Studio
3. Have children
4. Become a well known Photographer
5. Get married
6. Learn all i can about Photography
7. Live life ;)

Seven things I could do:
1. Survive getting hit by a car that was going 80km
2. Get a boyfriend
3. Be on the computer most of my time
4. Read all day long
5. Listen to music 24/7 (I have music playing while I'm sleeping)
6. Get through things eventually
7. Move out when i was 15

Seven celebrity crushes:
1. Marilyn Manson

2. Chad Gray

3. Daniel Johns

4. Shannon Noll (Only this photo is sexy, and no Amy - don't worry I'm not taking your boy ;) lol)

5. Davey Havok

6. David Boreanaz

7. Jon and Munky - I know its two, but shut the fuck up.

Seven often-repeated words:
1. Fuck
2. lol
3. Wooooooshiiiiiiii
4. Booooooooo
5. AAAAAAAZZZZZZZZZZZUUUUUUU
6. What the fuck?
7. Dude

Seven physical traits I look for in the opposite sex:
1. Eyes
2. Smile
3. Smell
4. Height
5. Muscles? Well being well defined is nice. Mmmm Brendan *drools*
6. Hair? I dont know :P
7. I cant think of anymore :P

If you want to fill this in, feel free to put it in your blog or what ever the hell you want to use it for :P

I didnt do much today. It was extremly quite :P Though me and mum talked more about the car im getting, and she was saying i was going to love it (i havnt actually seen it yet). I cant wait to drive around :| Its going to be wicked :P But yeah. Other then that, i dont know what to say. Was kind of boring today :P None the less, enjoy my Tags ;)

Im crazy :D So are YOU!

2005-10-22T04:54:00.000+10:00

Man oh man. I'm typing this at 4.54am. Boy what a night :P Stayed up with my boyfriend, then asked my mate Steve to stay up too :D I don't even know what the hell I'm saying half the time *dozes off*

I had a pretty good day yesterday...It was quiet and weird, but ok. Anyway, thought i should just update ;)

I was being a smart ass with some paper and i got a nice big deep paper cut. FUCK it hurt :P Note to self: Do not try and out smarten the wise paper; it will always slice back.

Uh, ignore my weirdness ;) I'm tired :D

*crawls to bed*

Fiona xo

"Herbie" the Beetle

2005-10-20T23:13:00.000+10:00

Well i cant beleive this. Mum and dad bought me a car :| Today dad came home for lunch and told me him and mum bought me this VW Beetle. I was so shocked, but excited and happy. Woah i still cant believe they bought me a car. I cant wait to mod it, go on road trips etc :P All i can say is wow.... Hopefully i will be getting it next week :D Yay! When i take a photo of it, i shall post it up here. So keep watching out for it ;)

Not much else happened today, Fiona when in for Surgery and apprently it went ok according to Amy. Our family bought her flowers and there going to be delivered tomorrow. I hope she likes them :D

Friday tomorrow, woot. That means rage. Rage = good. For anyone who doesnt know what Rage is, it is a program in Australia that shows music video clips, and it kicks major ass.

Anyway, signing out ;)

Fiona xo

Oh and thats another photo of me :P Yes i know, i am indeed a Camera Whore.

TAFE and other things.

2005-10-20T10:24:00.000+10:00

Well i still havnt droped my resume in. Blah i feel slack over that...but what i actually did manage to do was ring up Tafe and get a time for an "Information/Enrolment" Session. I have to go next Wednesday at 4.30pm. Im actually kind of nervous....Probably because i havnt studied anything for quite a while, and the fact that i might not get in. I hope i do though :D I want to do an IT and Business Course. Im thinking of buying a suit too so im prepared for job interviews. Thats going to be really funny, me in a suit. I rekon ill look kind of smart ;) Ha. Anyway fingers crossed that i will get in to the courses i want to do.

Mum and dad talked about buying me a car today. Some beetle type thing they saw at the place they work. I was actually thinking about a nice jeep type thing. Something i can sleep in on my travels, hold all my photography stuff...put a nice laptop there *pictures in her head* Mmmm :P But yeah...Anything im happy with. So yeah - i might be getting a car soon *Yay*

Tomorrow Fiona (Amys mum) has to have surgery. Im sure everything will go ok, and i truely beleive she will get through this, she has before... Amy im thinking of you hun :D Im here for you, really i am.

Hopefully after next week i shall be going to Sydney to see one of my best mates. Yay for Karla :P She has her own place with her boyfriend now. There so lucky...Thats something i would love to do. So that should be good, im looking forward to go and see her. I might drop in to see my boy as well :D If he lets me come see him ;) Lol.

I get to have one of my favorite foods tomorrow; Chinese :D :P Um yeah.. :P I didnt know what else to say. Anyway i might go now :D Night Night kids.

Fiona xo

PS. That photo was one of those i took on my walk last night....The Queanbeyan Graveyard at Dusk. Hope you all enjoy :)

The Graveyard and other little stories

2005-10-18T23:58:00.000+10:00

Well i woke up this morning and came downstairs to find all these packages for me. As some of you would have guessed, they were from eBay. One stood out in the crowd though and it was marked "Private and Confidential" so i was like Ummm ok :\ Anyway i opened it up and it was my Weight Watchers starter kit :D I'm going to try and shed some kgs to be a more happier, healthy person. Its pretty good i must say, quite a bit of reading to do and lots of things to fill out. I'm starting to exercise *a lot* more then i used to as well, oh and i even walked to the Shopping Center (which is about 30-45 minutes away depending how fast you walk) so I'm proud of myself. I'm doing lots of skipping and sit ups too.

I didn't get to take in my resume in today because i slept in. I have to get an early night tonight because I'm really tired and i need to get up early so dad can take me down so i can drop it in. I realllllllly hope i get the job, and I'm looking at getting a second job too. My cousin suggested i should approach Real Estate Agents and ask them about any photography jobs. That would be nice but i think i would need a full licence to get to the actual house.

While i was out tonight i took photos of the local graveyard when it was reaching dusk. I'm thinking of sending some into the local newspaper and seeing if they would want to publish any. I remember her saying (I've contacted them before) if i took any pictures of Queanbeyan's icons looking good..then to send them in. Its worth a shot right :D

Anyway that's what happened today - will update tomorrow.

Fiona xo

Moving on with life

2005-10-17T22:50:00.000+10:00

Well i didn't do much today. I woke up about 3pm this afternoon after chatting to Brendan until the early hours of the morning. We talked about our problems with our relationship, trying to fix them - sort them out i spose. I guess we both left feeling calm knowing that most of them got sorted out. Its hard to know when he has a problem with our relationship. Well its not hard in that sense that i can down right not tell....Its hard because he doesn't really show his emotions. He told me how he felt about a lot of things - I have now decided to back away. He told me that he felt like he always had to be talking to me to make me happy... And that i was different when he first met me. Well of course I'm going to be different now, people change everyday. I know what he was saying though...probably that i was a nicer person when he actually met me. I know i was calmer, less angered and yes a nicer person but that doesn't mean I'm not that nice now...right? :( So i am backing off now, and going to do other things with my life now. I don't want to disappoint or make Brendan unhappy at all, i love him with all my heart (: Did i ever mention i had a jealousy problem with him? Its kind of died down now which is good, i just don't want to loose him....and I want to kill my jealousy problem. So anyway - fuck that.

I'm going down to this Antique shop tomorrow to try and get a job. They are advertising on the net and i was like "Oooo a nice way to get more cash in my hand....for my hopeful trip to Europe next year". Ive seen the shop before, haven't been in there though...just seen it. I need to get a bit of help from my mate CJ just to tidy my Resume up a bit more. His really good at Resumes :P The Resume King ^^ A lot of you probably wont know, but I'm going to try and go to Europe next year. I was looking at going in July to September to visit my good friend Shelly. We are going to be backpacking Northern Ireland, Ireland, Paris, London and maybe Scotland. Something like that anyway :P Oh and not to mention we are both attending this big Photography meet :P Yay! So exciting :P

So that was my day today...Just bumming around researching travel stuff and looking for a job. Oh and i have to ring up Tafe soon to see if i can do this course. Wish me luck for the job people ;)

Fiona

Color in Mood

2005-10-16T20:28:00.000+10:00

This weekend has been extremely weird. I went to Amy's house on Friday then went to the surgeon with her and her mother. The Surgeon explained everything to Fiona (Amy's mum) and what would have to be done etc. She has to have an operation on Thursday (20th of this month) and then radiation. I'm sure she will get through it, but while i was there she was really sick throwing up etc. I felt bad because i couldn't really help her. Also, Amy was in a bit of a bad mood, but that's understandable. Apart from that, we spent the weekend colouring in - oh and drinking a lot.

Anyway, i came home to find my mum telling me someone called her telling her Amy and i was drunk. Heh, who the fuck would dare to call my mum and say that? Seriously...what a fucking loser. We were just trying to calm our nerves with a bit of booze since all this shit is going on. Anyway, two fold.

Ive been wining a few bids on ebay. Hopefully i shall be scrapbooking at the end of this week :D That's something to do i spose. Anyway, I'm out for the night.

Fiona

PS. Halloween is soon ;) Dont forget to get your costume ready :D

Blah.

2005-10-13T18:15:00.000+10:00

Not good news today. Amy told me her mum has Breast Cancer again *cries* Amy is handling it pretty well....but i dont know if thats a good or bad thing. But not to worry she has her friends and me to support her. Oh and of course, we are all going to support her mum. I love you Amy, if you need anything at any time just give me a call.

Anyway onto other things. I got my ipod today :D Its awesome, and i love it :P Hahaha i sound weird now. Ahh well - its sexy. I have some of my favorite music on it, i still have a shit load more to add.

Going to Amy's house tomorrow. Should be good, weird and sad at the time. Ahh well she can listen to my ipod with me (:

What else is happening? Not much really...been working out alot lately, im getting sore muscles lol, so i spose its working.

Not much else to say.... Im kind of on weird terms with my boyfriend. We dont talk as much as we use to. I found this song that really reminded me of him, and old times. Brendan if your reading this listen to Boys of Summer - DJ Sammy. I love you.

News ;)

2005-10-12T21:09:00.000+10:00

Well i thought i would type another entry because i was partly bored, and because i didn't tell you what i did today etc :P Anyway today i received my photos from Ted's printing company. I would say i got about 300 photos. They were all of Me and my best mate, me and my boy, and family. Oh and ones of the holidays ive been on etc. I'm planning to scrapbook some of them so that should be fun ^^

Tomorrow I'm expecting my Ipod i got from Ebay. I got it at a reasonable price (about $400). The price was ok i guess...considering it was an ipod. I'm really excited about getting it because then i can go walking...and go on my photography trips with music. I did have a mp3 player which was in the pocket of my messenger bag...but mum hosed it out thinking there was nothing in it...so it got destroyed :'( Ahh well, I'm not complaining, i get a ipod :D And in case your wondering why my mum hosed my bag, shes a cleaning freak.

I'm planning to go over to Amy's house on the weekend :D Oh and Stephen told me today that i was the "Official" Photographer for his band and that he wants photos taken on Saturday. So yeah ;) Amy I'm dragging you along weather you like it or not huni.

Anyway, just thought i would tell you all that.

2005-10-12T19:42:00.000+10:00

Me :P Yeah i look funny but shhh :P

2005-10-12T19:41:00.000+10:00

Amy, my best mate.

2005-10-12T19:36:00.000+10:00

Me on the left, Amy on the right.

2005-10-12T19:31:00.000+10:00

Me on the left and my boyfriend on the right :D His a cutie ;)

2005-10-12T19:23:00.000+10:00

Me (on the right) and my cousin on the left :)

Online Journal

2005-10-12T18:46:00.000+10:00

Hello everyone!

Let me introduce myself. My name is Fiona, i am 16 years old and i live in Australia. I have decided to keep a blog instead of a journal that i write in. I guess its easier because I'm pretty much always on the computer.

My hobbies include Photography, Reading, Travel, Music, Scrap booking and of course Computers and the internet.

I'm obsessed with my boyfriend Brendan, and my best friend Amy. Oh and ebay ;) I love ebay so much...I wonder if there is some kind of Ebay Anonymous - something i probably should attend ;)

Anyway some of my short term goals at the moment is to loose weight, buy a bike and ride it, do the Information Technology - Certificate II course, find more pen-pals and give blood. If you want to see more of my goals just head to http://www.43things.com/person/SatanicMistress

I would have to say my long term goals would have to be traveling the world, becoming a professional photographer (i don't really count myself as a professional photographer just yet), live in my own little place hopefully my boyfriend, have children, get married, lead a happy life :P You know, the usual.

I love heavy metal, trance/dance, a bit of classic, RnB and punk music. Some of my favorite bands would have to be Marilyn Manson, Deicide, Mudvayne, Biggie Smalls, Missy Elliot, Pretty much all of the Ministry of Sound CDs, Queen, The Beatles....I have lots. I'm not really into pop music though.

Anyway some unusual little facts about are:

** I was hit by a car that was traveling 80km an hour on the 17th of July, 2004. I suffered a lot of injuries which included a bit of my leg being ripped out (which i had to have plastic surgery on), deep gashes on my face, random cuts and bruises all over my body and yeah...I have a lot of scars. None the less, it taught me a lesson, opened new doors in life and I'm happy because it wouldn't have bought me to this stage in life.

** I have 15 piercings which include 6 in each ear, tongue, labret, and nose. I used to have an industrial piercing but i had to take it out. I plan to get more though :D

Oh and ill add some photos soonish :P Me and Amy (my best mate) promised each other we would write in our blogs everyday, so keep coming back and make sure you leave comments :D

Fiona xo